I prefer to accept as a motive not the thing I fully understand but the thing I partly understand. Utter clarity of explanation to me is false.
~ Saul Bellow, Herzog
Among my less charming personal faults is the inability to understand the motives for my own words or actions. When asked to explain myself I take up the task with real curiosity. I’m as eager as anyone to hear what I have to say in my defense. Sometimes the motives I uncover are interesting or enlightening for me personally, but they frequently fail to convince. I admit that explanations volunteered by others often sound more plausible. Still, I feel misunderstood.